Thanks to you

I went back up to the Piazza Michelangelo by myself today. Just to journal and be alone, or at least as alone as it is possible to be here.  Even though I was sitting infront of one of the most amazing views of my life, I was feeling a little homesick. And then i had an epiphany. 

I am so lucky to be homesick.

If God had not blessed me with an amazing home I would not miss it.  If my family wasnt so wonderful and loving and close-knit it would not hurt so bad to be away from them.
I have been taking my family and my home for granted. For the last few years all I have done is complained about how boring, dull, and cold Rochester is. But in reality, it is the warmest place in the world for me.

For a while now I have been making travel plans for after college. I've been thinking about working my butt off waitressing or something for 6 months of the year and then traveling for 6 months of the year. Now, I realized thats not what I want. I definitely still want to travel a lot. I have wandering feet that cant stay still.  But I think I will do shorter trips.  Because I realized that where I really want to be is with my family.
Because they're the best thing that ever happened to me.

For those of you who dont get the updates, my mom had another check-up appointment yesterday. It was the best one yet. She is just doing so well. Thank you thank you thank you Jesus. 
All I can think about is this song, which I feel describes our situation perfectly:
Thanks to You by Copeland

It's been a long two years.
It's time to smile, we've made it this far, just like you said.
Just like you said we would.
There are no more tears.
We've used them all so now we'll rely on our laughter,
And the faith that pain gives joy.

I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through
Is now passed on to me I need to wear it like you always do.
Like you always do.

This far from home,
It doesn't feel as far when I know you're doing well.
Distance is what you make it.
The distance is what you make it.

I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through
Is now passed on to me I wear it like you always do.
I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through
(I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through)
Is now passed on to me I wear it like you always do.
(Is now passed on to me)
Like you always do.




I love you mom.


sorry this post was so sappy. To make up for it i'll add a random thought.  Today I passed by a sign that said "Japanese Garden." Well actually it said "Giardino Giapponese." Anyways, I got to thinking, Japanese Gardens in America seem totally normal. But a Japanese garden in Firenze? Thats just wierd

Its so beautiful it takes my breath away. But I still think its got nothing on NYC. I too American for my own good.